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From bad to worse

2007-05-31 / 8:55 a.m.

Hello friends. It has been a while since I have written, and I am sorry. So much has been going on. We had a nice long weekend. Dan had Friday and Monday off, so we were at my Aunt's until late Monday night. We had a really nice time. We relaxed, read, swam, went to a kid's museum, went out to eat, watched movies, etc. It was fun. I didn't put my foot down on the "Martha talk", but I needed to vent some things, so it was fine. Unfortunately, that whole situation has gone from bad to worse. It's a really long dramatic story, so I'll spare you the details. It's actually a tiny bit funny to hear some of the things Martha had to say. Like when I retell the story to people who know me and my mom, they get a little chuckle. Here are some of my favorite quotes:

(imagine her sobbing in most of these)
(and know that most of these are not true)
"I waited every day for you to come and you never came."
"You are tearing my heart apart!"
"You are wrong Kimberly!"
"You are causing me to cry for hours, every single day."

I could go on, but really, there's no point in getting myself all worked up again. Basically we had another crying and screaming match on the phone which ended with me hanging up when she was screaming so hard I could barely make out her words. So there you go. I'm back to being the terrible daughter who is tearing out her mother's heart and making her cry everyday. That was on Tuesday morning and I decided that I would give it a few days to settle down and then decide where to go from there. I thought there was absolutely no way she would ever call me - especially since I hung up on her. When we got home from church on Wed. night, there was a message from her. She was calling to apologize and talk to me. I was shocked! Of course it was too late to call last night and I was a chicken. So I have to call her today. I REALLY don't want to. Every time the phone rings, I jump and pray it's not her. I know we need to get things settled, it just seems easier when I don't have to deal with her. I know, not very mature attitude to have. And she did make the first move, and I'm sure it wasn't easy for her, blah blah blah. I hate dealing with this and I think it is because I know it is always going to be like this.

In other news, my friend Jenn had her baby. He was a month early, as were her previous two children. I went to see her the next day in the hospital and the baby is beautiful. He doesn't really look like the other two, which I think is kind of fun. Between her having her baby, Jeanne Marie having her baby, and all the baby on the brain, I think we are almost ready to start trying for another one. I get nervous thinking about it. But when I was talking to Beth last night, we figured out that even if I got pregnant right away (which, given my past history, isn't likely to happen) Bg2 would be two years old already. So that is not that different than the time difference between Bg1 and Bg2 (2 yrs. and 4 months). So, we'll see. Who knows what will happen.

I've been doing at least 2 scrapbook pages a day. I do it during the girl's naptime, and it has been very theraputic for me. I relax and have time to listen to music and be creative. I'm liking it. Giving up my soap has freed up some time for me and I think it was a smart decision. Plus, I really want to get caught up on my books.

I still haven't thought of what I want for my birthday/mother's day gift, but things have been added to the list. I'm narrowing it down and will hopefully go shopping sometime soon. Matt and Beth gave me season 1 and 2 of the Gilmore Girls for my birthday, which I LOVE! I've already started watching some of them. It was a great present and now it makes me want to get the rest of the seasons.

Well, I need to put off the dreaded phone call and get it over with. Wish me luck!

K

crawling * walking

On my way! - 2007-06-18