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2007-11-21 / 8:43 a.m.

I haven't posted in quite a few days because I just haven't felt up to it. I've been really run down and tired lately. I'm not sure what my problem is exactly, but I know it has something to do with not getting enough sleep. I think I'm turning nocturnal - I'm wide awake at night, but dragging all day long. If I didn't have the girls to take care of, I'd be sleeping all day.

I've been doing a lot of cleaning out and going through of things lately. I get this way when Christmas is approaching and I think about where things are going to go. I'm excited to get the tree up and the decorations out, but I wish they could just be up - with no effort on my part. Where did I put that magic wand? We have done almost no shopping for presents yet, and we have almost no ideas. I hate this feeling. I wish I just had a list that we could get through in one day. But I've got nothing.

I just realized that since my last entry, things weren't great with Dan. Things are much better. I am seeing definate effort on his part and he is going out of his way to let me know that he loves me. We had a nice date night on Friday and a lazy weekend to enjoy being with each other and the girls.

That dreaded discussion is coming up in our house. The one I dread every year. The one where we have to decide what to do for Bg1's birthday and how to incorporate Dan's family into that equation. My prefered method is to celebrate her birthday with his family when we see them all for Christmas and then have a seperate party for my family and a few friends. For some reason, I can't get anyone else on board for this. The last couple of years, his family have not been celebrating Christmas on Christmas Eve (like they did for years) and so that throws a wrench in the plans. Plus, Dan's parents don't like to travel down for Christmas one weekend and then Bg1's birthday the next weekend - which I totally understand. I'm fine with just seeing them on Christmas, but whatever. So now the pressure is on for me to make a decision. Apparently they told Dan that we should celebrate Christmas/Birthday at the same time (brilliant idea) but we can't fit everyone in our house to do that. So we need someone to offer their house for the event. I don't know. The whole thing stresses me out.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I can't wait to spend some time with Beth and her family. I'm making a salad and the best pecan pie - Eva's recipe! We are supposed to go to my aunt's house this weekend, since we aren't spending Thanksgiving with them. Honestly, I really don't want to go. I'm not feeling great, I always get negative when I'm there and we talk about Martha and I want to get the Christmas decorations up. I'm thinking of cancelling. The only thing is that she is making the girl's Christmas dresses again, and I think she has been working to get them done by this weekend and I don't know when else we would be able to see her to get them. Is that selfish? I don't want to go just to get the dresses. Maybe we can find another weekend.

Ok, so you know those kind of blemish/zits that sit beneath the surface and hurt so badly?! You can't really see them, but you can feel them? And they are usually hard as a rock? I have one of those on the inside of my right nostil lobe! It hurts SO badly. Thank goodness you can't see it. I've been putting stuff on it for the past day and it is actually going down, so maybe it won't erupt! I'm sorry to share, but it just hurts!

I had to take Martha to the doctor yesterday. Of course, she called the night before to ask me - which makes me mad, but I didn't have any plans, so I did it. The girls are still getting over being sick, so they were not happy to be away from home. Now Dan is feeling congested - which is part of my sleep problem - the snoring!

Okay, I'm off to spend some time with the girlies. Happy Thanksgiving!

K

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