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Long time no talk

2007-12-13 / 8:33 p.m.

It's been a while since my last post. Honestly, I've been consumed with Flickr, so I haven't felt like posting.

Today was a rough day for me. I had a lot on my plate, and I know that a lot of it was brought on by my own desire to appear perfect. Here's the thing. Dan's parents are coming in for the weekend. They are coming to watch the girls for the weekend so Dan and I can go away for our anniversary. I always stress myself out about this. I feel like my house has to be perfect. Like there will be an inspection while I am gone.

I am more than ready to be gone for a couple of days. I miss Dan and don't feel like we've been really spending quality time together. I love my girls more than anything, but I need a break. Especially after today. Bg1 would not take a nap and that doesn't make for a pleasant day. She was defiant, wouldn't listen, etc. And with the in-laws here - I could feel the pressure. Like they were watching how I parented/disciplined her for her bahavior. I hate feeling like I am being judged and watched. I usually feel like I need to run away when this is the case. Thankfully, that will be happening. Tomorrow morning, Dan and I will get in the car and drive away until Sunday.

12 years of marriage - I can't really believe it. Some days I can't remember life without Dan, and others - it feels like yesterday that we were newlyweds.

I just overheard my father-in-law tell me that I am being "unsociable", so I guess I should go.

K

crawling * walking

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