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My Sucky Day

2008-05-16 / 5:37 p.m.

TODAY CAN BITE MY BUTT
by Kim

The last several days, I haven't been feeling well. I've felt run down, tired, achey, sore boobs, etc. I questioned whether I was pregnant when I was nauseous for the past three days. I called my ob/gyn yesterday and spent quite a bit of time on the phone with her. I felt like something might be wrong. After a negative home urine test, she made me an apt. for next Wed.

This morning, I woke up to a really strong pain in my lower right abdomen. It hurt all the way through to my back, but was hard to pinpoint where it was. I could barely move it hurt so bad. I had no memory of pulling a muscle or turning the wrong way, etc. I started to get worried and so I called the nurses line. They advised me to go in to urgent care since I have a history of an ectopic pregnancy. The nausea, pain, etc. were also symptoms of an appendicitis. I called most of my friends and couldn't find anyone to watch my kids. I ended up having to take them to my mom's house, so my sister in law could watch them. Now, you know I must have been in pain if I was willing to do that. Instead of driving all the way back to my urgent care, I decided to go to one near my mom's house. I already didn't like this place, but didn't want to spend more time driving than I had to. I was told the urgent care was at the hospital. I drive to the hospital, park in the parking structure, walk all the way in - "We don't have an urgent care. You have to go to the medical offices." Back in the car and to the medical offices. "Urgent car doesn't open until 4:30 pm." Tears start streaming down my face. I am in pain and I am so tired of running all over the place. They refer me to an office on campus that will take me without an apt. I go in explain to the nurse. They decide to take my money and let the doctor see me. I explain AGAIN. She wants to do a preg. test. Even though I had a negative one Yesterday - but whatever. Oh, and by the way, regardless of what the results are, you're going to have to go to the ER (back where I was originally) because we don't have an ultrasound machine here and that's the only way to tell what's going on. AND we're closing for lunch. So go pee in this cup and wait for our hour long lunch break to be over and then we'll tell you the results. I take my pee to the lab where the technician tells me the doctor made a mistake and wrote blood test instead of urine test. I'm like, what should I do. Oh nothing, go back to the doctor and I'll call her to verify. An hour and a half later - doctor calls me in. "Why did the technician tell me that you refused to take a blood test? I wanted you to have a blood test!" Again with the tears! "I did not refuse her. She said you must have made a mistake and sent me back. I wasn't given the option to give her my blood." Well you'll have to go back and give it to her and then wait for the results. How long? Another hour. No. I will give you my blood and then I am leaving. I am not staying here, giving you my money so that I can pee in a cup while you eat your lunch, just to be sent to the ER later - where I'll have to pay more money for them to tell me I'm not pregnant." And I left. Crying. Still in pain. Not the pain it was this morning, but still no answers. She did say that it could possibly have been a cyst that ruptured, which might just be the case. But you know, in case my appendix bursts and she did nothing about it? That's okay. "Make a follow up apt. with you doctor."

THERE IS NOTHING I HATE MORE THAN GOING TO THE DOCTOR AND THEM TELLING YOU THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU. IT IS ONE OF MY BIGGEST ANNOYANCES. And the thing is, I have an extremely high pain tolerance, and if I was willing to go to the hastle of going to Martha's - I must have been in some pain.

So I went to pick up the girls and head home. Starving and crying. The girls fell asleep, which meant I had to carry them in - when I can barely walk!

Meanwhile, Dan is glad that it was "convienent to take them to my moms"! CONVIENENT? Convienent for HIM! He never offered to leave work and come take me or stay with the girls so I didn't have to worry about that on top of everything else. He doesn't think about those things. When they first found my ectopic, years ago, he left to go back to work. Left me alone at the hospital to have an injection to basically abort our baby! As much as I say I have forgiven him for that - I couldn't help but be reminded of it today.

So pretty much, today sucked really bad. I still don't know what was wrong with me. I hope I don't die between now and Wed. when I go in to see my doctor. If I have the same kind of pain, I will go to my ER, I just hope I don't have to drive myself there and be alone again. I'm being dramatic and a baby, but I don't care.

Did I mention that today sucked?

crawling * walking

Calgone....take me away.....PLEASE! - 2008-07-08